Moment Of Indecision

God ultimately has a plan for our life. There will always come a time where
we are at a crossroad. A point where we have to make a choice about
something, whether it's big or small, that will affect our lives in some way.

During the conflict, we are torn and maybe even emotionally raw. We over analyze,
debate, research ...and hopefully pray about what we should do.

Years before this crossroad ever came into existence, we could easily theorize what
our choice would be, "Oh yea, IF that ever happens to me, I would just simply ____."

Years after the decision, in hindsight or maybe while we are in Eternity, we would
easily look back and say that God is good and He did have the best plan for us.
No big deal.

So during the conflict of choice, of what we should do next, is one of the hardest
positions to be in. It is one of the loudest moments of your life. Your emotions and
thoughts are on their highest setting.

It is hard to talk to others during this time since you are wound with indecision and
maybe wrought with some degree of fear. Words you say aren't out of wisdom or
peace. You are still trying to get a handle on things and let go so God can take over.

These are the precious moments that show us who we are.
And in those very moments, God can show us who He is.

Living in our daily routines is like a car coasting down a hill. But when these
life-changing moments come, it's like a deer darting out in front of that car.

Panic, emotion overload, fear and prayer come at the same time. We find
out our weaknesses, while our hidden fears and bottled-up emotions come to light.

These moments of indecision are the perfect time to have a nice long chat
with God. Repent, if needed, and ask Him to help you move forward.
Ask for wisdom and peace .....and keep praying until you feel that peace.

PSALM 46

Radium Girls



Around the 1920's, watchmakers used glow in the dark paint and hired employees to paint their watch faces with it.  These dial painters had to be accurate and precise, sometimes licking the paintbrush bristles so they could get into those tiny spaces.  The paint was so cool that the employees would paint their nails with it ....or to be funny, they would paint their faces and teeth!

They trusted their employer and they also liked getting 8 cents for each glow in the dark face they made.  But what they didn't know was that the paint contained radium.  They were exposed to toxic amounts of radiation.  One woman died at the age of 24, while others lived longer but riddled with health issues caused by the radiation: lack of blood (anemia), bone fractures and radium jaw (necrosis of the jaw).

A law suit was filed against the company and the employees were compensated $10K each plus $600 each year that they lived with all their medical bills paid for.

Why did I  just tell you about those Radium Girls?  It is an analogy for our modern day food and cosmetic suppliers.  They tell us their products are safe and we assume they are since the grocery stores sell them.  Just because it is on the shelf means that it is safe? NO!

Please look at the ingredients you ingest and research the ill effects of them.  Don't be foolish with your food and cosmetics ....then if something goes wrong with your health, God is blamed and not the actual root of the problem.  What we put on our skin and in our mouths have a lot to do with our health!

Find out for yourself, search the internet to see what harmful things are in your home.

For cosmetic safety (makeup, lotions, shampoos, etc) I use Skin Deep.
For food safety, I use Food Facts.


God already has a bum rap and if we continue to neglect and take care of our bodies, then we will reap the results.  When something bad happens to people, they tend to point the finger to God and ask
"WHY GOD, WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?"
but they should really point that finger to themselves and ask

"WHAT DID I DO AND HOW CAN I CHANGE BEFORE IT REALLY IS TOO LATE?"

Adult Tantrums

I have a two year old and she is learning her independence. Wanting to get her way, not knowing the full picture. For example, she would like to eat chocolate all the time. She is only looking at the current moment of enjoyment without looking at the bigger picture of her health in the long run. That is my job. I am supposed to guide her decisions, squelch her unhealthy or harmful impulses and redirect her negative energy since I see the bigger role it will play in her life.

Now let us use that example with God. He is our Heavenly Father and we are His children that should turn to Him for direction since He is the one who sees *our* bigger picture. At times, we have been known to have our own tantrums when we don't receive something for reasons beyond our current knowledge.

God is looking for faith in Him. Looking for us to trust Him with our lives and go to Him with a thankful heart ...no matter what we have or don't have. We don't have something for a reason; a spouse, a baby, more money, etc. Whatever we are longing for, we need to understand that there is a reason beyond our current understanding that we need to trust God with.

When we look back at our own lives, we see many examples of this. "I am so glad I didn't ___" or "I guess I am glad that happened since it got me where I am today" or even "That bad thing happened but my heart and faith are stronger for it." Unfortunately we don't live in hindsight as our foresight ...that is what faith in God is for.

Just as my toddler needs to trust my decisions for her, so should we trust in God. He can see far beyond what we could ever imagine or think. His ways our not our own. (Isaiah 55:8)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will direct your path.
-Proverbs 3:5-6

To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven;

A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, a time to reap that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.

-The Book of Ecclesiastes and The Byrds song 'Turn, Turn, Turn'

Delusions of Grandeur

I have been presented with this subject for some months now and feel the need to share.

Does God heal? Yes.
Does God heal everyone, every time? No.
While Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead once, Lazarus still eventually died.

Why is death considered terrible? To a Christian (meaning: a true believer of Jesus, living out Gods word in their life) our death here only means we have life in Heaven with Jesus. Is that so terrible? Is that to be feared?

The disciples did not die peacefully in their sleep at a ripe old age of 120 years. So who are we to think that we are better than them? That we actually have any say on the matter at all is the greatest delusion of grandeur.

Phrases like;
"He was too young to die"
"Having that ailment means you don't have enough faith"
"She was a Believer, how could she have died like that?"
should never come out of our mouths. We have no right to say such things. That is enough to make God cry at our ignorance of Him and His ways. Who are we to tell God when the right time of someones death should be? What death is the "proper" way to die?? Who do we really think we are???

Mary the Mom died, Peter the Rock died, John the Beloved died. It is a fact of life here, our earthly bodies were not meant to live forever, they have to die in order for us to receive our eternal bodies ...again, is this such a terrible thing?

We live in a fallen world, blessings and curses rain on the just and unjust. (Matthew 5:45) This is the fault of sin and Satan. Death comes in many forms, some at the disgusting hand of evil and others are the work of sickness or disease. God gives us eternal life, that is what being here is all about. Our daily choice while we have breath on this Earth determines if we will spend our eternity in Heaven or in Hell. Our earthly body has nothing to do with our salvation.

The bible states that His timing is not our own. It also advises us to be content in whatever we have (or don't have). God looks at our heart to see if we qualify for Heaven. He doesn't look at how many limbs we have or how many houses we own. Our salvation doesn't depend on how many children we do or don't have, and it certainly doesn't matter if our body gets afflicted in any way. It isn't *what* we go through, but *how* we go through it. A matter of our own heart which is only between us and God, no one else is the judge of our own heart.

Are we *jealous* of those who can have another child while we can't, *angry* at him for only being able to afford a one bedroom house, or *bitter* that cancer crept into our bones? These ways are not Gods ways and should be repented to have a clean heart with God.

*** Now, this all being said, I do have to say that we are still going to grieve and truly miss life, that is absolutely normal and totally justified. I am, in no way, saying otherwise. Even a mature Believer will, at least, have some apprehension of death but to fear death seems unjustifiable in the light of Eternity with God. ***

Lucy & Ethel




When I think of the TV show I Love Lucy, the first picture that pops in my head is Ethel in Lucy's apartment. It is not that Lucy was NEVER at Ethel's, but it was very rare.

Lucy was very selfish and always acted on impulse out of a selfish mindset. Me, me, me. My life, what I want, what I deserve. Ethel was very supportive but they did get into tiffs every now and then.

Now let us think of two friends. One always going over the others house, always meeting in their house/town, and almost always calling them. Everyone wants to be a Lucy. Everyone going to them, calling them, having others bend to fit around them.

So if everyone is Lucy, where are the Ethel's?
Who wants to be the one adjusting to others all the time?

If you do have Ethel's in your life, are you thankful to them and compensate somehow that you are the Lucy? What would be compensation in a friendship, anyway?

If one friend always adjust to the you ALL THE TIME, what do they need in return? Maybe just the conversation rotating around them for a while. Or simply, you picking up the tab for dinner to compensate for the gas and extra time it took them to meet you in your town. Just some way for that friend to feel appreciated, I guess it would depend on that Ethel-friend and what kind of friend you are to them to customize how you can show them you appreciate them.

Friendship, like any relationship (with a spouse, with the Lord), should not have any trace of selfishness in it. If it does, then that will be the crack that keeps separating over time.

A new year has started, a whole new decade. Let us all take this moment to evaluate our friendships and see if we harbor any selfishness in them. Start fresh, each day is a new day. It doesn't matter how it was, but it does matter how it will be.

In Matthew 7:12, it says
So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you.

If you expect others to be an Ethel to you, then you need to be an Ethel to them. That is what compromise is all about. That is what living righteous is all about, with a clean heart ....no selfishness.